Surreal, surreal...

So... guess where I'll be on Sunday?

Yeah. That says Incubus and The Bravery.

My favorite band (Incubus of course). FINALLY!

On a slightly hurt and annoyed note:
I distinctly heard Kaceria (my cousin) ask me whether I had been gaining weight.

Me: What?
Kaceria: Oh, I didn't say anything.
Me: WHAT did you just say?
Kaceria: .......

The hell you didn't say anything.

IS THIS ANY OF YOUR BUSINESS? And seeing as I've been obsessively fixated with my appearance for a good 10 years, is this any way to make me feel like I just might be OK?

Fuck.

So... I'm gonna start running everyday and sustaining myself on nothing but grapes and raw veggies.

Officer Suspended Over `Ghetto Handbook'

My foot itches severely and I am convinced my bed has been attacking me. But enough of that (See what I did there? I actually diverted attention from worthless personal information to actual news!).


A Houston police officer was recently suspended by the Houston Independent School District for distributing copies of a so-called "Ghetto Handbook" to 15 fellow officers at a May meeting.

The Handbook contained a type of "Ebonics dictionary", intended for use in deciphering the dialect and slang used predominantely by black teens.

The handbooks were immediately confiscated by a supervisor and were not further distributed or used in the school or by members of faculty.

BUT. The question is: Why did it take 3 months for news of this horrendous act of racism to surface?

I must say, I am surprised that this was even reported at all.
Though the newscaster's briefing on the scandal lasted a mere minute, while the sports segment of the "news" lasted a quarter of an hour.


Racism is NOT history, guys. It's the reality of the present. This is not the land of freedom and civil rights.


Read on here: http://ap.google.com/article/ALeqM5hYJdpWZpV2E37eKMQqh6ahBPwffQ

What to do in corrupt society? Laugh.

Can someone tell me what happened to "innocent until proven guilty"?
Or the Separation of Church and State?
Or the Right to Religious Freedom?

Now, what about simple compassion and the value of human life. Why is a posse of mindless, heartless, evil drones running this country?


The L.A. Times has released a letter from a Guantanamo Bay detainee. (ok, this is old news, but it's terrible)

This (completely innocent!) man has been detained at Guantanamo Bay (nazi-esque concentration and execution camp) for several years.
He has lived under extremely poor and inhumane conditions and has never once awaited trial or been given the chance to defend himself.
He has attempted suicide, as this would be more bearable than the agony he has been forced to endure.

Read the entire letter on Mark's blog. Yeah I know I'm badass for linking to someone else's blog: http://http//panasonicyouth.buzznet.com/user/journal/101866/


These innocent detainees are treated like animals. No, worse. They're treated like the scum of the Earth, like something you've never seen. In a manner you could never imagine.

This needs to end NOW. I demand for all of the prisoners to be released from Guantanamo Bay as well as from the secret camps we are told exist, but whose locations remain unknown to the public.

There is nothing free or brave about these States anymore. We reside in an autocracy comparable only to the heinous, bloodthirsty dictatorships of our history books.
*coughHitlerStalinMaoMussolinicough*

For the record, I steal from other people's blog on a regular basis. If I'm unable to come up with anything shockingly ludicrous on my own.

Anti-Christian Jeans Are a Trend in Sweden

So I about laughed up my cake after seeing this. Old news but whatever.
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,180171,00.html

Oh, don't act like you care.

(You see, I'm fond of neither children nor my grandmother.)

I Scored a 100%!

That's right, motherfuckers! At least I'm good at something.

This rating was determined based on the presence of the following words:
shit (6x) hell (5x) fucking (2x) drugs (1x)

Find your rating at http://mingle2.com/blog-rating

I am a horrible, horrible, horrible, horrible person.
And I'm having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day(s).

Why, you ask?

Well, the guilt. And righteously so, it seems. I can't get away from it (as always) and I feel sick to my stomach because of the nerves.
But this happens alot... I've got anxiety issues out the ass. I think it's my childhood and psychological state all wrapped into one.

And my hate... of things. I just feel so tense everywhere. The way I used to feel everytime I walked into my dad's house.

And people keep dying. The wrong people. It's just never fair, is it?

The greats die and refuse to reproduce while the idiotic morons procreate and further pollute with their right-wing, ignorant, hate-mongering spawn.

Religion can suck it. Organized, facist government can too.

I really hope I don't EVER take my depression to any type of extreme. I should probably be talking to actual people, not a blog about this, right?

Maybe. Possibly. But counselors and psychiatrists haven't worked in the past 16 years. They're the kind of people who make money off of the misery of others. And they don't solve anything do they? No. Not really. At best they'll prescribe you another drug so THEY don't have to deal with your emotions.

And fuck drugs. Seriously, I wish they didn't exist. I wish they and weapons didn't exist.

I'm just a sad girl who thinks too much and keeps her emotions to herself. Ugh. Maybe it'd be better if I was one of those jerks who breaks shit at random to vent their anger?
I don't know.

Disregard this post, please.

These States.

Police officers arrested teens and strangled a 13-year old girl for SKATEBOARDING.
Doesn't this country have bigger issues to worry about? Apparently not.

I fucking hate cops.

Toothpaste For Dinner

It's not okay

It's not fine with me that loved ones come home and have a drink at 5 pm (today 3:30).
It's definitely not ok when this happens every single day and continues throughout the evening.
It's not ok that every person I know here drinks and drives.

Since when am I a parent?

Like hell we are anxiously waiting

SO, the war in Iraq has now cost American texpayers 1 trillion dollars as of a few days ago (or so they say, it's probably been longer still).
Know how much that is?
it's...

$1,000,000,000,000.
Fucking hell. (I do believe that is the term for which you were searching right about now)



Let's see... that would buy you... the world.

They don't tell you this shit on TV, they don't tell you on the radio, and they most certainly don't teach you this shit at school.

See, Americans* are stupid, it's true.
But it's all by design, it's intentional.




*And by Americans I mean 95% of the people you see on the streets, in your favorite restaurant or in a public classroom.

New Statistics!

^^ THAT sound like a great name for a band.


Lately I've been ill and writing songs constantly. I miss my guitar and my people.


According to Dr. Drew, 1 in 5 bulimics die of the addiction. Holy shit, man.

What will Christians come up with next?

I have serious issues with religion.
Witness.


http://dormitem.com/blog/193


Damn evangelists.

Just as I thought our little society might be doing OK...

So I was just listening to an old airing of Loveline (with Stryker and Dr. Drew) on Youtube and I witnessed the inevitable (if you're living in America, that is).

This 'telephone actress' (or phonesex pro for us mortals) was wondering how to amp up her profession basically. So Dr. Drew and Stryker told her to mention the word 'holocaust' in her little run-through about who she is and what she looks like.

SHE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT THE HOLOCAUST WAS.

Oh my fucking Jesus Christ.

A 25-year old (I think) from California said that, folks.

But then, that's the American educational system for you.


I'm off to shoot myself in hopelessness.

Lauren -- [noun]: A hard-core grave robber 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Agreed?

Her excuse?

Mother loves to smoke.

Her friend's here right now.
Mom mentioned she doesn't want my music shared right now. Fine. I shut it off.
Not that I can listen to my vice elsewhere, seeing as my mp3-player is still dysfunctional(!!!).

I had one request. "Then please don't share your cigarettes with the house and non-smokers."
Her response was "Well, I'm the adult and the owner. And I have company tonight. You can go somewhere else where there isn't any smoking going on."

DA;IWEOJRAW9485P2379590!!!!!$#w%^&%^&*!!!

Pfft, like such a place exists here. Because smoke spreads throughout the entire house in the course of a few minutes, thus rendering the home a sanctuary for nicotine whores.
So... what's the deal with going OUTSIDE to smoke? i don't get it.

And I really don't feel like having my food seasoned with the aroma of pesticides and tobacco.
I'm hoping she'll understand the distastefulness of the habit once she's stopped.

I informed her of a few of the effects of smoking (as if she was previously unaware).
Response?
"Well other things kill too"
What, like guns? Do I own a gun? No. Bad comeback, mother.

That's it.

Music Up The A

I now have a music blog: http://musicupthea.blogspot.com

You're welcome, I love you too.

Slightly restoring my faith in humankind

Robert Smith, I want your babies?

Jade Puget, Davey Havok.

So, CexCells is amazing... though the booklet art is slightly disturbing.
And I don't even like electronic music.


MY FUCKING MP3-PLAYER FUCKING STOPPED MOTHERFUCKING WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


(I apologize for the language, readers. Wait, no I don't. If there are kids reading this then they should just leave, stupid kids deserve to be exposed to these things.)

This, on top of my already less-than-peachy mood reminds me, yet again, that it just isn't my day. EVER.

Don't buy an uber-expensive mp3 player, kids. It's just not worth it. Fucking A.

So, now I bet I'll somehow have to find my proof of purchase thingy and receipt. This is the second time my device needs repair. IN 6 MONTHS!!!

I'm fucking suing Toshiba for manufacturing this (beautiful) piece of crap and selling it for 100 times more that it's worth.

Raise your hand if you'll need therapy after this.








*Raises hand*

37mm

Do you fall too?
Everytime that I...
Yes, I fall.
...Everytime that I
Do you want ...
Have you ever fallen?
..to fall into me?


Q: Did it hurt?
A: What?
Q:When you fell from the sky?


Q:Will you have sex with me? No? Well then, rape it is!

I'll never let you go, if you promise not to fade away.

Never fade away.

I'm convulsing.

"God", I feel so sick.


This song means so much to me; I'm dedicating it to the people I love. You should know who you are.
So listen carefully.




So I'm not coming back. Questions? You're entitled to as many as you've got. But send them in a Myspace MESSAGE (not a comment) and I'll answer when I can.

I'm sorry.

6 to 8

Six figures enter; they've come to destroy the world.
They've called together this storm almost every night.
I awake in another place.
A familiar voice with a stranger's face speaks more unheard words.
What new friends will the day bring?
One for one thousand acquainted.
What new home will the night bring?
When it all comes down you just throw the bones.
On the way I saw five hours of sleep but your fire makes it all worth while.
On the way I wrote words for you to keep.
On the way, I saw myself.
Lost myself along the way.

MadTV is the shit.

the killing lights

It's killing time again.

Put on your face and let's pretend,

These killing lights won't kill us all again.

3 AM on the city street,

When the air is sweet,

I have had my mouthful

But it seems that outside the screen

Such a pretty face often will look dreadful...

It's killing time again.

Cover your face and we'll pretend,

these killing lights won't kill us all again.

Funniest video ever.

Electronicapopularindie80'srock.

Just started listening to Jade and Davey's new (AFI) side project, Blaqk Audio. I love it! It's very keyboard/synthesizer-influenced and reminiscent of the 80's. I simply love it.

And... Jeffree Star makes wonderful indie/electronic pop. So sugary sweet! So magnificent!

Head Automatica is the shizz... as is Glassjaw, Muse, Big D and the Kids Table and Family Force 5.

Oh hell yeah.

I like men in makeup.
I like 80's electronica. Spandau Ballet. Depeche Mode. Psyche.

I A M A C H A M E L E O N

So here we are

I caught a glimpse, but its been forgotten
So here we are again
I made a vow, to carry you home... home
I really tried to do what you wanted
It all went wrong again
I made a vow, to carry you home
If you fall sick, if you pass out

I figured it out, I can see again